A Few Questions

The other day I got in my car and the radio was on the country station. {not sure why, because I rarely listen to country these days.} This song by Clay Walker was on and this is the line I immediately heard,

"And how can two people who've built a loving home
Try for years and never have a child of their own
And somewhere out there tonight there's a baby no one's holding tight"


Umm HELLO. That got my attention pretty quickly.
So I continued to listen to the rest of the song.
Here are all of the lyrics.

Clay Walker A Few Questions Lyrics:
How in this world can we put a man on the moon
And still have a need for a place like St. Jude's
And why is one man born in a place where all they know is war
And a guy like me has always been free
And how can two people who've built a loving home
Try for years and never have a child of their own
And somewhere out there tonight there's a baby no one's holding tight
In need of love, to me that don't add up

But I wasn't there the day you filled up the oceans
I didn't get to see you hang the stars in the sky
So I don't mean to second guess you or criticize what I don't understandThese are just a few questions I have

And why did my cousin have to die in that crash
A good kid only 17, I still wonder about that
It seems unfair to me some get the chance to chase their dreams
And some don't, but what do I know?

I wasn't there the day you filled up the oceans
I didn't get to see you hang the stars in the sky
So I don't mean to second guess you or criticize what I don't understand
These are just a few questions I have

Why do I feel like you're hearing these prayers of mine
When so many outta be ahead of me in line
When you look down on me, can you see the good through all the bad
These are just a few questions I have


The timing of this song could not have been more perfect. This was the day that I learned that our first IUI had FAILED. All I could think about was, WHY God Why. We went through so much last month. I'm exhausted already from counting days for the next month and going to more doctors appointments.
So yeah I have a few questions of these things I don't understand. But I do know that He is the God and creator of this universe. He is ALL knowing and He does have all the answers. He is all I need. I also hope that I can look back on this whole journey and see that we struggled "well" and glorified Him through it all.

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. (Psalm 62:1-2)

So as we begin another long month, I'm praying for peace, patience, guidance and faithfulness. The Lord has already given me an unexplainable peace so far which I'm so thankful for.

Now if I can just get through the weekend... Nothing reminds me more of how infertile I am than Mothers day coming up. So instead I will just have to focus on my wonderful mother.