Tuesday, September 13, 2011


Why we chose IVf...

There are several reasons we have decided to do this. A big reason is that we have been blessed with great insurance. We know that does not make it free, but we started saving for a child long before we started trying. Remember I'm a planner...(I'm still learning how to not be one) We started saving to cover hospital expenses and furniture for a nursery... we will just have enough to cover our total expenses.

We have such a Peace about it. This wasn't something we just couldn't wait to do. Honestly who wants to go through something like this that is really not so easy? It will by no means be a piece of cake or a walk in the park. Who wants to give themselves shots everyday. Talk about getting poked, probed, and looked at are never fun.
We have been praying about this for awhile. We have also had family and friends praying for us for quite sometime now. I have talked to several different people that have been through it already. Some are successful stories and some are not. I have to be okay with whatever the outcome is, positive or negative. That is not an easy place to get to. To put myself through this mentally and physically, failure does not seem appealing. I do know whatever the outcome will be, will be Gods choice and not mine. We do not put our faith in the doctors whatsoever. We know He has chosen to test our Faith greatly through this process and it is only strengthening both Marc and I.

If we were to not try this, I'm not sure I could properly grieve about NEVER having a child. I think it would be hard to move on past it, whether that would someday be towards adoption or being foster parents. I just think I would always wonder... "What If?" or I would continue to ask myself why was I being so stubborn in not giving it a chance when great insurance is present?

We are fully aware that it is risky and there are a lot of moral convictions that we have about it. We will definitely be taking the more conservative approach. We will most likely not have all of the eggs fertilized to keep the number of embryos down. Remember, I have major back issues, so we will also only be putting 1 in at a time. We will be praying for God to choose that number of embryos we get. We are sure He will not give us more than we can handle.

All of this to say we are excited to be moving on. I know I'm trying to just take 1 thing at a time because all the information is so daunting, but I'm thankful for the opportunity to do this and I'm thankful to be moving on to our next chapter.

I will most likely be blogging my way through this whole process with hopefully some fun in between. I do someday want to print the blog into a book form, so I want to keep an account of what happens. I also think it is good therapy for me to write about it all. :)

Thank you for joining us on this long, crazy, hard journey.

1 Peter 1:6-7 

6 So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. 7 These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.

New Living Translation (NLT)


Sarah Autry said...

love. praying for you sweet friend.

waiting and wishing said...

It certainly isn't all rainbows and unicorns, but you can do it! I'm about to jump on that wagon for a second time very soon. I will be praying right along with you that peace remains as you navigate the coming weeks!

Anonymous said...

So proud of you and loved visiting with you about all of this the other night. Praying!!
Kristi Farmer

Julee said...

Can't wait to go through this journey with you!! You know I am always here for you!

Linds said...

praying for you guys! Thank you for that verse-- it is exactly what I needed to "hear" today.

Joys Truly said...

I just started following your blog today and that passage is exactly what I needed as less than a week ago we got a BFN from our first IVF process. But we are going to try it again very soon. I wish you the best of luck, it is hard at times but when you look back on it, it is not as bad as you thought, especially when you know the outcome can be amazing. Many prayers to you and your husband.

PEA said...

found your blog through kellys korner a while back and have never commented. I just wanted to let you know that some random women in houston (me) is praying for you and your future family! "For this child I prayed and the Lord has granted me my petition" 1st Samuel 1:27 :-)